The F word.


All consuming.

It’s deep & dark & bigger than all of us.

& pain is like a thief in the night.

Quiet. Persistent. Diminished by time & faith & Love.

I have lived the last several years in fear.

Fear that I’m not smart enough. Fear of not being pretty enough. Or not qualified enough.

Endless amounts of fears, if you can think of it? I’ve experience it, or at least thought it.

Fears that if I get in an elevator, it will get stuck & stop working….then my heart will give out in panic.

Oh & the thought of getting in an airplane? Forget it. Who wants to put their life in the hands of a pilot, 35,000 feet above ground level…. I never did.

My fears were irrational & completely ridiculous if you don’t mind me saying. We all have them.

But it came from not trusting myself & mostly not trusting in God.

Have you ever known that nauseous feeling you get when you’re about to go over the first drop of a roller coaster?

Or the lump you get in your throat when you’re about to stand up & give a speech in front of hundreds of people?

It’s kind of like that.

Your hands get all sweaty, your heart starts to race & vertigo ensues. Out of body experience? Check.

But this past year, I’ve had the joy of battling every fear that comes my way & succeeding

& that gives me warmth. Warmth, like when you’re a young child running into your parents arms as they spin you around.

Isn’t that what we want? To feel safe?

You are safe. You just have to believe it.

You’re incredibly intelligent, don’t compare yourself to others?

Not a fan of the mirror? Well, to be honest you may be the fairest of them all….but in a world full of fake–you’re not the most beautiful.

To me you are, to your parents, to your friends, to God–you’re the most precious, valuable gift there is. Despite what your inner demons are trying to tell you….

You’re capable.

You will make mistakes.

You will allow fear to take over.

But remember–

Love never fails.

It wins every time.

So surrender,

remember you’re brave.

You are inspiring to





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