I’ve been incredibly stubborn with love my entire life. It’s hard for even me to fathom, coming from a childhood FULL of the best kind of love you could wish for.
Im one of those: has a HUGE wall built & it normally takes a soul shattering earthquakes to rip into my heart… this much is true.. for me at least.
I have been falling in love so fast this past year, let me clarify. I have fallen in love romantically, emotionally, intellectually, & unconditionally both all together & seperate. You’re thinking…how does any of that make sense, I know.
My journey of self – discovery is one that has been furthest from a selfish thought or act. I have had no intention of trying to ‘fake it till you make it’ mentality or just suffering in many horrible relationships until God decides to ‘grant’ me happiness. I mean, there is always sunshine after a storm? Maybe.. but I wouldn’t count on it.
I recently met this guy & his name is Adam, but I didnt know that then. He dresses very sharp & is was quiet. First time I saw him was in a coffee shop I work at, he came in ordered a coffee & pastrie… sitting down at the nearest table. He sat for a couple hours, sometimes glancing at the tv in the background, other times looking out the window.
I started noticing a pattern, this is something he has done everyday for years. It had become part of ‘his time’ & routine at that. He comes in almost 6 days a week around the same time.
I didnt know if I should speak to him, he always looked somewhat sad or closed off–maybe that was my perception of him….
I began to make small talk & memorize his order so he felt someone cared….as I thought he may be lonely…& slowly day after day the conversations began to grow in length.
I started to joke around with him & felt as though he became more comfortable in his surroundings, like someone see’s him & for who he is. & it did. So now when he comes in we dont just talk about the weather… but silly things.
I look forward to Adam coming into my job everyday & when he doesn’t my day just isn’t as bright. Its moments of his ear to ear innocent smile that help me remember why its all worth it…. or how hes genuine ‘thank you’s’ warm my soul…
Maybe thats why he became a character in my story, to help me remember to be kind. To reach out & love strangers because you never know if they need hope, or a good laugh or simply someone to listen.
I dont love Adam romantically, nor will I ever…. since he’s 89 years old. But he brings out a new side in me I needed to be reminded of. He is my friend & the cutest one at that. He’s from Poland. His siblings live in Moscow, his wife passed away roughly 15 years ago. He remembers the day gas was. $.25 a gallon. He comes to get coffee & a pastry to relax before he goes to the city- Chicago to mingle with friends. I could keep going, trust me thers more… but I wont. He is the liveliest young soul I have met.
I do love Adam. He brings me joy & reminds me to live each day with care. That each moment is precious. To do what I want & to not let anyone define me…..to define myself. To hold true to faith. Ahhh he is the absolute best.
I might adopt him as my grandpa…
But before then inviting him to Thanksgiving, step one. 🙂
Be kind to strangers. Be kind to your family. Love is louder & wins everytime. We are meant to love everyone & lift them to the level of greatness they believe they can reach. Enocouage. Forgive. Let your guard down…
& see what happens & where it takes you.
I promise it will be kind when you do.