1. a person or thing intended to deceive others, typically by unjustifiably claiming or being credited with accomplishments or qualities.


This is how I feel about my religion lately. It’s a hard season to go through & I’m sure some of you could relate. 

The world is an increasingly hard place to live it. It’s more competitive in every aspect. The rapid growth of social media sites such as Instagram send messages out into the world that share “our moments.” I have to say, this is a pretty sweet concept. I would be lying to say I don’t indulge in it. But Guys, is this the way to live like the Lord has called us?? Should we be taking pictures of only the things we want people to see…. or should we be showing the hard aspects too?

I am a fraud with my faith(at least today).

Do you ever feel that way? Maybe it’s just me…

But more or less…. these days I just feel numb. Is it because I let myself fall away from God? or is it society that has turned me into this selfish monster? I think a bit of both have an effect on it. But I just have to say, I know it’s my lack of Love. I have focused on the absolute wrong things. I thought of God as this pawn in my game of life, how disgusting is that?! I never thought I would go through a phase like this, but I’m being taught a LOT.

How often do you feel real? 100%, yourself? Completely aligned with God? In life, it’s a hard battle. You have so many things trying to help tear you apart. Spiritual Warfare can be a hard thing, but I notice when I pull myself closer God–he opens his arms wider(if that’s even possible)… 

Colossians 3:2

Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.

The Lord has been teaching me HUGE life lessons. I’ve made dumb decisions. I have glorified money instead of Jesus. I have put my faith & self worth in the World. I have put men on pedestals instead of the Lord. I have become this person I don’t even recognize. However, the Lord never let go….he’s been holding onto me for dear life, when it should be the other way around…. which is what it’s become. I will NEVER let go. ever. ever.


1 John 2:15-17 

Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world. And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.

I’m not claiming to be perfect, I’m far from it. I just feel like I can try so much harder in life. I blame, I dislike, I judge—–where did my Love of the Lord go? I pray for willingness to Love those in this world. To be the light of those who are living in darkness. To do what I can for those in homes of brokenness….to be my best self.  I promise to give me best, will you help hold me accountable? 




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